How did my education fail me?

1970- 1974 Europe (mostly in West Berlin and West Germany)

The period from 1979- 1987

These years failed me. I was thinking about my aim to unite the world. But I did not do any work for my aim. I wanted to leave my home or parents and wanted to work for my aim. So I compromised with my father. I did not want to hurt him as he told me, " When I was a child, my father died. When I am old, I shall think that my son died." He said when I wanted to leave home and wanted to go to Calcutta or Bombay from Delhi. But his emotional words stopped me from leaving home. I feel today he was right. He must be knowing that his son is a good person. He shall be exploited by crooked people. So he tried to stop me with emotions. I came under his influence. So I did not leave him, but I left India to study more. I went to Germany. I studied the German Language in Max Mueller Bhavan Poona. It must be a period from February 1970 to August 1970. In October I went to Germany.

When I read my books, written by me during those days, I only find that I wanted to work for Unity of the World. I wanted to help. In actual practice, nothing happened. I only wrote and wrote. I worked to earn my livelihood and earned money to study. Time just passed. One year, second year and third year, and so next years. The only good part of this study was passing my later life successfully without worrying about money. 

Due to my Ideology, I worked hard and wanted to help others. Whenever I was in a position to help as Managing Director or Chief Executive of a Brewery, I helped poor workers and families of prostitutes by giving them jobs in a brewery. I gave an equal salary to Men or Women for the same work. Men objected, but I paid an equal salary. 

Jaipal Singh Datta (Manager) and A.P. Raju (Director) of Artos Breweries Ltd welcome Brigadier (Dr.) Kapil Mohan V.S.M. and Managing Director of Mohan Meakin Ltd and Mr. B.D.Bali Managing Director of Mount Shivalik Breweries and Trade Links. 

Jaipal Singh Datta explains the brewing process to Raj Babu of Ramachandrapuram and Krishna of Kakinada (East Godavari legislature members)

I gave special incentives to workers who married interstate, the opposite sex. I tried to work without earning more money. It helped society. Sick Brewery could be converted to a healthy unit. Due to my Ideology, I adopted a village nearby this brewery. During a study in Germany, I could understand the difference between a capitalistic country and a socialistic country. I was an Indian who could meet East Berlin People. I could cross the national boundaries. I could meet East Berlin people. I met Fraulein Lilo. I could know two different systems of national governess. Capitalistic or Socialistic.

Visit of Director of Mohan Meakin Ltd - Gurusharan Singh Choudhri with local M.L.As of Esat Godavari District Andhra Pradesh India.

P.V.Subba Rao (Secretary of Artos Breweries Ltd), G.S. Choudhri (Director of Mohan Meakin Ltd), V.S.S.Sharma (State Excise Inspector), Jaipal Singh Datta (Chief Executive of Artos Breweries Ltd), and V.V.S. Ravindranathan (Brew Master of Artos Breweries Ltd). 

Director of Mohan Meakin Ltd G.S. Choudhry discusses the brewery project with Jaipal, Ravi, Anil Sood, Rajesh Datta, Kashi Babu, Konda Babu of Brewery. The fact remains that I failed to achieve my aim. I could not work to unite the people, or I could not teach for the unity of the world. I had to earn money to live and study. I worked and earned and earned so much, which was just sufficient to study and live. I could read books on Mao. Maoists were considered more left-oriented than Marxists or Leninists. I could not work for the unity of the world. Time just passed. I failed and regret it. I feel bad about myself, about my sacrifice of love and my love. Later on, I just lived, and there was no aim. There was no desire and no feeling in me. It helped my master, but It did not help me. I earned and just passed my time. I was lucky to have a good job. But I failed. I developed personal relations with senior IAS officers like Jainder Singh, Deepak Panwar, Ashok Kumar Goel, or Malkundayya. I came to know about administration. I came in contact with masses and different politicians, including chief ministers of Andhra Pradesh like N.T.Rama Rao.

Members of the Legislature of East Godavari are smelling hops which are produced in Kashmir, India.

But I failed. I failed because my aim did not employ me or give me money. I wanted money to earn or to live. So I failed. Today I know it was due to the period of Shani, Budha, and Ketu Planets. It also taught me that we are only puppets in the hand of destiny. I missed my golden period of life. I could have enjoyed the company with whom one may like to live or die together. I failed in my aim, and I failed in my love, and I lost my life. I just passed my life.